“When I was really skinny, I wanted to kill myself. I was miserable, inside and out, for four years of my life. But no one cared, because aesthetically you make sense. It was a dark time for me. I thought the only way out was quitting. I like wrecked my knees and my feet because all I would do is put in headphones and run. I was at the gym all the time.” – Kelly Clarkson (Attitude Magazine)
This morning, I made my way to the gym. The room was filled with the disillusion of idolized outcomes. And while feverishly running on the treadmill, I happened upon the aforementioned quote. I read each line of the interview over and over. I hit the illuminated pause button on the panel, and slowed down to a stop. “What am I doing?”, I thought to myself. “What am I doing?”.
I have spent a large majority of the day reflecting on Kelly’s quote, and mulling over my approach to expressing my feelings on the subject matter. And, I have decided to give the YouTube approach, in the form of a vlog response, another chance. Look for the complete video tonight (or tomorrow).
Thank you for listening. Have a great Sunday!