Day 49: Perspective.

If you’re lost you can look and you will find me.
Time after time.
If you fall I will catch you, I will be waiting.
Time after time.

– “Time After Time” by Cyndi Lauper

Last night, as I watched the final “A Minute and Glass of Wine”, I gained some much needed perspective on my feelings. Kelsey Ballerini and Kelly Clarkson covered “Time After Time”. Of course, I shed a tear or two. Okay, I was ugly crying over my glass of wine. After the song had ended, Kelly took her final picture with the audience. The cameras went dark, the viewer count slowly decreased on the live stream and the video ended.

Through the tears, a clear picture emerged. I am going through heavy emotional withdraw after my engagement to Mikey at the Kelly Clarkson concert. When you ride the highest high, eventually the higher you climb, the farther you have to fall. Why should I continue to feel guilty?

One of my friends took the time to make a very powerful comment on my post. She took the time to phrase it using Kelly Clarkson song titles – a language I can understand. And you know what, she is right! I need to “catch my breath”. I need to breathe.