Beat down on me, beat down like a waterfall Cause I can take on so much more than I had ever dreamed So beat down on me, beat down like a waterfall Cause baby, I am ready to be free – Kelly Clarkson
This morning, my intentions were clear. Get up early,
stretch my body, and head to the gym for an early workout. Well, I accomplished
one of three. Can you guess which? That is right; I got out of bed at 5:00am. Though
it sounds like an excuse, I am simply too tired. In fact, I am physically and
mentally exhausted throughout the majority of the day.
I am not sick. I do not believe I suffer from depression or “being
bummed out”. I have triumphed over the “Kelly Slump” post-concert. So, what is
the deal? I am clearly motivated to challenge myself and achieve my goals. I simply
need to push through this “case of the blahs”. Does anyone have any advice?
As I continue to sort through my feelings and possible explanations for my exhaustion, I leave you with my personal morning motivation (courtesy of Kelly Clarkson):
“Everyone is different: different shapes, sizes, colors, beliefs, personalities, and you have to celebrate those differences.” – Kelly Clarkson
The impossible is possible. I have completed the Meaning of Life Tour 40 Day Wellness Challenge, and I couldn’t be more proud of myself. The past 40 days have been some of the most positive and introspective of my life.
I started my journey by fixating on the numbers, waging war with the scale. Each morning was a digital dance with gravity. Often, I felt like I was fighting a battle of lost causes, not pounds. In contrast, I am ending this challenge by reflecting on my personal victory over the scale. I started this challenge at 206.2 lbs. This morning, I weighted in at 191.2 lbs. for a total loss of 15 pounds! I am beyond proud of myself. The biggest takeaway I can visual see is that I really need a pedicure. I mean, look at those paws. Woof!
In addition, my waist size has dropped three belt notches from 36 to 33 inches. I attached these before and after photos for visual perspective. From left to right: March 17, 2018, January 31, 2019, March 22, 2019.
While I didn’t start this challenge on March 17, 2018, I feel like its important to remind you of where the weight loss portion of my journey began. This process started over a year ago. The point of this challenge was to motivate me to change my life – a complete and total change. The physical aspect of my journey is actually very important. My inside more closely resembles my outside. A year ago, I tipped the scale at 230 lbs. Today, I weighed in at 191.2 lbs. A thirty-nine pound loss, by anyone’s standard, is a victory.
The Mental & Emotional
Mindfulness was also an important component of this challenge. This whole challenge was actually born from a conversation with my community manager. During our monthly one-on-one, she asked me about my goals for the quarter. In addition to sales and prospect goals, I told her I had a personal goal to be more mindful.
How do you measure mindfulness? How do you measure the idea of living in the present?
A couple of days later, I came up with the Meaning of Life Tour 40 Day Diet & Exercise Challenge, and after a week (and reflection), “Diet & Exercise” was replaced with the word “Wellness”. I felt like the only way I could truly measure mindfulness was by blogging and reflecting on my posts. The only stipulation was that I had to blog at least once a day. One post, each day to share my life with you. As I reflected on my experiences and how I wanted to convey this blog to all of you, I kept thinking about Kelly Clarkson.
At the beginning of this challenge, Kelly Clarkson was a main character in my story. Her vibrant personality, off-the-wall quotes, uplifting songs, and overall awesomeness served as the foundation upon which to build my blog, and express my thoughts and feelings. However, after 40 days, I realize she is not a main character.
Kelly Clarkson is a supportive player. And I am by no means downgrading her importance to me. Her music has been the soundtrack of my life. From the highest of highs to the depths of “have you ever felt low”, she has been a constant comfort. Like her music, she is an important piece of my puzzle. The true main character in my life is Mikey. And before I started this challenge, I took that fact for granted.
I am not a fortune teller. I can’t predict the future from a saucer of tea leaves. I do not own a crystal ball. However, I have faith in God and the Universe that my journey will be full of unending joy, fearless laughter, and everlasting love. With Mikey’s steadfast love and support in my heart, and Kelly’s inspirational voice in my ear, I know everything will be alright. Thank you for allowing me to share my life with you. Thank you for taking the time to support my journey. I have nothing but gratitude for you. I am thankful.
But now I am invincible No, I ain’t a scared little girl no more Yeah, I am invincible What was I running for I was hiding from the world I was so afraid, I felt so unsure Now I am invincible Another perfect storm – Kelly Clarkson (Invincible)